A reminder to laugh a little.

Do you ever look up, in a moment of clarity, and think to yourself wow, I’ve been taking things really seriously lately?

Sometimes, if you insist on clenching to the seriousness of Life/the Universe/Everything Else, life, the Universe, and everything else will smack you over the head to remind you that you really have no control so you might as well have a little fun.

This is exactly what happened to me last Friday.

Things have been pretty heavy lately. I’ve been feeling tension in almost every area of my life: home, work, relationships, health, family, money.

I went to the convenience store to buy tea candles for a romantic bath experience I was planning. First of all, it was two days after Halloween and every candle in Denver was being used to light up freaky/funny/sad pumpkin faces. When I realized that there were no tea candles to be had, I decided to smell some of the other available candles on the shelf. I’m always curious to see how candle companies interpret sensory experiences like ‘Cozy Fireplace’, ‘Summer Rain’, and ‘Grandma’s Cookies’.

I spotted ‘Sparkling Icicle’ and, naturally, had to see what the hell they came up with for that one.

I made the critical mistake of picking up the 3 lb. candle by its lid. The bottom-heaviness of the candle itself was too much for the sad little lid to carry. The 3 lb. candle fell from the top shelf to the top of my foot before rolling down the aisle.

I’m just gonna go ahead and say it, it hurt like a motherfucker.

My foot was throbbing and I was rendered immobile for a few minutes while my body adjusted to absurdity of being endangered in the middle of a Walgreens.

Eventually the pain lessened to a throb and, instead of crying or screaming, I erupted in laughter. The kind of stomach clenching belly laughter that leaves you teary and staggering for breath.

It. Felt. So. Good.

Here I was, writhing in pain, and laughing my ass off in a public place.

Once I came to, I smiled, grateful for the reminder that lightness and levity can be found.

Sometimes we just have to choose it, to let the laugh eclipse the lull. Sometimes we just have to open our eyes to see that lightness can be found everywhere.

The experience didn’t change anything about my current situation, it didn’t fill my bank account with money or help my Mom feel less sick. But it did remind me of how good it feels to smile and how freeing it can be to laugh at the beautiful madness of life. It gave me the courage to carry on, to make it through another day/night, and hobble around my reality with the intent live a little bit lighter.

I’m sure there will be days when I forget and get sucked back into the seriousness, of course the Universe is always ready to toss a reminder my way, even one disguised as a ‘Sparkling Icicle’.